2monthssss

Havent blogged in 2months updates on my life are as followed
-A yr older
-Started Sen10r yr
-Made friends
-You know with making friends come losing friends
-Love Lost
-Cru$hinggg<3
-New person
-More mature
-Drama FREEE!
-Applying to colleges =]
Lots changed lifes changed i just embrace it and keep it movinng foward ya heardd!



-YanMillie

long awhileeeeeee

well i havent been on hereeee in a whileee..lets see summer has gone byyy so fassttt. this summer has beenn greatt ive lovedd everyy moment! its had its ups a downs but its all good. school yr almostt here. and bday tooo so im excited. ppl these days tho are madd for nothinggg. idk if there mad if im confident or because i learned nott to carrrreeee? either way im not changing me for anyone! love life this summerrr its been all over. got hurt but kno thats all in the game of loveeee.. you learn to move on with it. Friends? met some prettyyy cool ppl i would like to stay cool withhh. i have learned my lessons on friends boys and lifeee. Im ready to take the next step in maturity and learn moreee about this game we call lifeeee. My love life currently underconstructionnnn got mycrush on em but hmm. got to put em in the bagggg hahaha...

-Yaniiii

Realizationnnn!

Hellooo Blogging worlddd
My day is pretttyyy goood. Enjoying summer to the fullest...School starts soon kinda excited because its close to the bdayyy! Turning 17 in bout a month then getting the Ls haha. Prettyy excitinggg... Living life with NO DRAMA! Growing up and gettting over things. I guess its not as serious as it seemmmss lol. Plans for the weekend so far consit of
-Party
-Going out
-Hershey parkkk
Planninggg Kourtney and I partyyy
Going to be funn...
Trust and Believe youll wanna be there.
More infoo laterrrr...Well boredom calls G2G
Let me say this againnn... Lifes to short for bickering and Drama. So what imma do is move on....

-Yan F.Millie!

Really tho!{For Nosey and wrong ones wasnt dedicatted ya heardd!}

Blocked phone calls! Lets speak on this subject first off thats mega immature to block a call and pop off at the mouth its quite uncessary. Yall some Lip Leakers. Ya heardd. You chicks got the nerve to call my phone on private saying stuff bout my sister and my bestiee. Like yall crossed the line completely. I feel as though that if you can tlk over the phone. We can do the tlking in person. When i saying tlking i actually mean fighting. I dont like yall. You can take me for a jokee if you like and you will regret it i aint the one to mess with. You may think i am but believe me i aint. Best to believe you can get ya lip split in a miniutee Best to believe i give you something to taste blood in ya mouth and my GLORY. So for you 3 that decides to prank call. My crew and me. Yall dont like us say it. Kno dat! Oh For the ones who read the blog..This is not to anyone specfifc. Ya heardd..Aint for the dramma,...
-Yan Fckin Millie!
P.S. Me and the bestie partyy is Next Saturdayya on the 15thhhh! Cant wait. NAnd this week on the 31st its the cuzzo partyyy at victoria pointe club houseeee....

Weekendddd!

Well Ive been working all week! Im sooo tireeeddd! But i needa blog lets seee....
13th is the last time i blogged
so the 14th-I workeeeddd and chilled
15th-Workedd and chilled at stevis and had lots of funnn && took pics&& its was thads bdayyy
16th-Workeddd and went to memoms partyy wackk but funnnn sleptt over her cribb and was hella funny and it was my cousin mimis bdayyy
17th=Todayyy! Workkkkk and lots of fun today is drews bdayy.. Bestiee is coming overrr happpyyyy! we goinggg to have funnn! Well today is still in motionnnnn so blog ya laterrrr

Emontinal & Deep.{Readdd}

My day was okayyyy i guesss! I had to work 9-3! im so tiredd! Anywayyyy! NIGGAS these dayssss! Woah they are really reckless.. Idk why they swear that i like them i give you a complimant and you think i like you uhhh;NO! I like somebody that doesnt live here...so yay for me lol. Well my day was just a normal day nothing special. Its been 7months with out my grandma. And Uncle Moe i will miss you! He just passed away July 1 2009. I found out late and wrong! But i will miss you and it wont be the same with out youuu! Im starting to form my little circle of friends and sticking with em! This summer im all about fun! NO BOYFRIENDS OR JOINTS! Its about being completly single! Well.... Yeah got work tomorrow. .
This is for you its dedicated!
I miss you.
I miss the way you walk
I miss the way you talk
I miss your hugs
I miss your kisses
I miss hearing your voice
I miss hearing your laughter
I miss everything about you.
I can imagine how you look exactly when you smile
I can see your wrinkles and exactly where they are
I can still smell your scent even tho your long gone
I can still remember your wise words
I can still remember all you taught me
I miss you and remember you will always be in my heart
I miss the Monday through Sunday Meals especially Greens nobody made em like you!
Im aching and hurting when i need your help when i long your hugs
I hear other people talk about their grandmas but they dont apperciate them
I wish I could explain to them cherish EVERY SINGLE MOMENT! You never know when she is going to be gone.. I close my eyes and imagine you,your voice,smell,everything! I just wish you were here to see me graduate and see me go on in life! But believe me this is for you,i made it cuz of you. You were my role model and i apperciate all youve done for me. I guess Allah{God}was ready to call you back. Its my time to use your advice and wise thoughts and take with me on my LONG journey!There is that time i want you back but i know you suffered enough here and its your time to rest. I miss you and love you dearly grandma!
That woman i spoke about was strong loving and caring! She fought cancer till it killed her! And i love her for that she didnt stopp till it beat her. she fought hard and long and im proud of her she fought long enough to see me untill my Jun10r yr! Im satisfied with that! Let me also say im a STRONG supporter for finding a cure for not only liver cancer but ALL CANCERS! I cant say this enough apperciate the time with your loved ones espically grandparents! And for me grandmothers! Love them hug them spend time with em. Tomorrow they can be gone. That was my deep side for the dayyy Im outtt!

- Yanique{What grandma called me!}

Follow up! haha

Well first off I'm following up on the besties blogs! First off my bestie is far from GAY! That nigga is like far from it and is in love with vagina as Beth said! The rumors need to stop! Like is he that amazing that yall want to try and throw dirt on his name like please! That's my bestie and I think I would know if he is gay but uh he's not! And as far as the STDs and STIs that's a lie from hell! And he's been with the same girl since sophmore year And that's a fact! I sit here and laugh like really tho! Like i dont understanddd what is there to lie for. I mean like really. Hmm that was extraa! Its crazyy tho what ppl what do. But his blog was hilaroussss! Because he is so effin raw in it haha. And beths made me laugh too! The rumors are just entertaining! and as Mike says"People get funnier everyday"haha and its truee! I love that negro I just wanted to address the fact also because it seems as tho just because we are besties that yall have to text my phone blowing it the eff up asking me bout his buisness like WTF thats none of ya concern like i wouldnt tell that boys buisness to anybodyyy like really tho! Its just ridiclous what ppl will do to get in his life. Like yall will sink that low to text me and say im concerned about mikes like fck you wasnt worried bout him before dont start now ya heard Well thats it about mikeee. I love you bestie! Well its time to tlk bout my day i chilled with the bestie & her family had lots and lots of fun! it was greattttt and chilled with himm<3 he is amaziiinnggg like really! Going to have lots of fun tomorrow. bout to go textttt!

-YanMille!

Lesson for the dayyyy

Welll;Lets me start off with WORK! Its a hard thing lol. I dont like FRESHMENS! I enjoy my job tho lol. I am going to philly tomorrow which should be exciting.Let me say almost 7months for the mom-mom..mannn timee pasttt! I miss that woman. Sen10r is prettyy mch ready for that diplomia...Im so boreedd. But life is like a diamond you should cherish it! Dont take anything for grante for example. Michael Jackson passed recently and Freaky Leek. Life is just to short to hold grudges and be mad over silly things. You dont know when the day will come so prepare your self everyday in every way say i love you to those you hate. and i love you to those who really mean the most to you,Remember to cherish today because tomorrow is promised!
I would like to dedicatee this to
-Roel Leon{6/27/90-11/12/06}
-Maxine Garcia{8/3/35-11/12/08}
Above you see i lost two of the best ppl ever My friend roel who was 16 when he passsed and my grandmother i love em bothhhh!!

Long time NO blog

Hey there blogging world!
Well i havent been on here in about two weeks so let me fill you in on somethings.
In the past two weeks ive gottten a Job,new friends,had some fun;chilled with the bestie
Well let me start off got my job last monday for the Oakcrest Mentorship Program.
My new friends consit of IDR lol.
My fun consits of pool,Pomona,Going out with family;Boardwalk and My besties house
Me chilling with bestie and her family is completely undescribable lol.
I had alot of fun withing the past two weeks.. So i cant wait for the rest of the summer to unfold cuz its going to be alot of fun! Anything else new...hmmm,NOPE. Have a lovely blogging day haha

-YanMillie

Long timee

Its been a few days since the last time i posted kinda forgot bout this well lets see,im still single,im on my baggin ishh!
Im catching up with old friends from 4th grade,im crushin kinda hard i absoutly love life right now nothing can bring me down. Went to a party monday wildin crazy lol only cuz i was with the bestest! slept over laniquas, Seeen transformers and hangover last night good timeesss. Well thats bout it oh i start working tuesdayyy!

-YanMillie

Today went to my brother demonds graduation,yes the lil bro is offically a freshmann! I got to see em today and im happpy!
I think i finallly found em hun! im deff diggin em all crazy!
Im done headache is killing meeee!

-YanMillie

Last Day

Last day of school was fun;good times this past school year.I gained knowledge and lost friends;and gained some! This school year was the most DRAMA,tearful,joyful school year. I have learned my lessons with BOYS. im talking to men for now onn,and finds out bout ppl tlking bout me but its all good they can contnuie to tlkk cuz its just words. If anything im glad im done till August;Im all done untill nxt timee! which might be tonight lol

-YanMillie

Just got in mi casa,had some fun outside,tomorrow is the last day im so happy; Senior yr is here {basically} I had fun with mark and quan;chilled with my husband joey lol,we had fun outside tripping! haha then his mom came out and asked who i was haha he said i was his wife;it was kinda funny;then he got in trouble so we had to leave.
then i went back to quans, tlked to the fam,and camehome at steak and mac&cheese it was yummmy=] Tomorrow is going to be AMAZZING!

-Yanmillie
ps. sakeenah wont stop singing ughhh!

This weekend hmm?

Well i acually went to a party and danced for once in my life lol. I had alot of fun i got to spend time with my bestie kourtney we was deff acting crazy this weekend,this weekend was the BEST! We had lots and lots of fun. I left earlyy today tomo. is the last dayy! Yes! Im happy. My life right now is perfect! Its just how i want it,ppl have changed & ppl have said ive changed but i love to think of it as simply just GROWING UP! thats all,Im learning i cant be nice to all,and try to show that i care it just doesnt work that way. Backk to the weekend,i chilled with a few friends,danced a little,laughed a little and not once did i get mad or upset. Deff got a crush on somebody=] ahh! lol im smiling thinking bout him. Recovering from the last one hasnt been easy but i did it and im proud to say I MOVED ON FROM THE CHILDISH GAMES! i honestly dont have the time to be called a devil and ya da ya! Im learning that we all cant be mature teens. Well bout to watch tv with my love hamid=] He didnt go to school cuz he is a bad boy!
-YanMillie

Wounded for life=[ dedicated!

Today has been 6months since you left me to be dependent and on my own how could it be that i survied so long without your touch,you kisses and your smell. I wonder to myself sometimes,would you apporove of what im doing,when i need advice theres none to be given atleast not what i want to hear,when all hope is lost there is nobody to give it back,nobody can heal the wound left in my heart and its never going to heal. Its been 25 weeks with out hearing your voice. Its been 181 days with out your touch. 4344 hours with out hearing you say "I love you."Its 260,640 minutes since ive been hurting and aching and crying. Its been 15,638,400 seconds with out seeing you.What im trying to say its been to damn long with out i miss and i need you ;but the sad thing is i know your gone forever. I love you so much!
Maxine Garcia{8-3-35-11-12-08}
-Grandaugter

Finals

For one I cant stop thinking bout this boy like why is this,its such a complicated thing,why do it have to be this complex! I dont know what to do with him,im a mess lol.Well didnt get to see em today so today isnt so great as usal,seeing his smile makes my day=] anyy who im in 12th period for my final which im taking a 50 on and wil have a 92,so idc! Going to be sitting in this class for 2 hrs,bored out of my mind. Im reallyy diggin the kidd,like idk,he is just AMAZZING! Who wouldve ever thought us two would even begin to tlk more than friends,believe me i never thought so,but you know take it sloww with this one,dont want any repeats like the last one,Well im bout to be gone,Blog it later

-YanMillie

"Then you rose into my life like a promised sunshine Brighting my day..."
*Maya Angelou*
Well for one,Im blogging i actually have something to talk bout lol,Well first let me say bethany is a meanie! lol jk(Insider)
Well my day so far is pretty dandy=]
I had some food and seen my FUTURE baby=]
so i guess i was double happy!
I was being an advice giver to my friend
I lost a friend today but its all good cuz it wasnt worth the drama. Summer is nearing finals start tomorrow got English and Computer graphics 1st so thatll be easy. Got an intereview Saturday so excited! Loving life to the fullest couldnt ask for anything else. I guess you can say im happy=] Drama free is the best feeling in the world,and i HEART kassandra!
My quote is deff dedicated!

Well didnt blog yesterday was busy finals are coming up,so im in the books! Dont know what to blog bout,just writing whatever boredom is going to be a killer one day!

I guess i have nothing to say,just felt like blogging,adios!

-YanMillie

Best Day Ever<3

Well,im trying to mrs.fixit and fix my blackberry not going as planned on hold listening to classical music. Lol. {Gave-up!}

Well wondering why this was the bestday ever! I seen my godbrother for the 1st time in about a year he is only 11 but we had the time of our lives we played hide-seek with my sister,She found me of course lol. We danced and just made the moments memoriable! We also played sims,we killed the ppl like 8 times lol. BTW his house is huge! I love it! ha! Well,we took pics..and i got to see my godsis for the first time ahh she is goregous! Pics will be up of us! We did magic tricks {he is a awesome magician! lol} It was just a perfect day for me,we just had mega fun and i couldnt have wanted it anyother way! Summer is almost here and i wll be there! So more to be devolped! I love you godbrother and sister<3

-YanMillie

No Title

Okay so i decided to blog today;idk what about,Im having a mental block as beth would say..Summer 09* almost here what to do,who knows. Look for love AGAIN. I think thats what i will tlk bout in the blog. Love,the defintion is ones own.What love means for me,hmm idk what to say ive been shown love and felt but cant describe it;i have been loved by the greatest person Akmed<3>I have no regrets in life cuz it only makes me stronger,smarter,richer,and wiser{same thing as smart i guess haha.} Back to love,im sure everybody has felt the joy,aches and pains. It is a walk in the park either..i guess you can say love is a rollercoaster that never stops. Love has there problems but you never quit or give up;like i did, You have to work through around it and over it. before its to late...Now im back at it;looking for a new love hopefully for the senior yr. Who knows only time will tell. True love comes once in a life time dont lose it!

-YanMille

Life?

Okay so lots going on in life or at least the past events have caught up with me. Im feeling the effect of the death of my Grandmother Maxine Garcia {August 3rd 1935-November 12,2008}Let me tell you why her death is now effecting me,yes i cried for a week or two knowin that what took her couldve been stopped{Cancer}.This lady was my life and i loved her with all my heart. She was the greatest person i have ever known and will prob ever know! Am i over her death even if its about to be 6months she has passed on June 12? No im not i cry when i think of the times we shared;the little things i do i remind my self of her;She was my bestfriend;i tlked to her bout everything she helped me through any and everything. I always promised her i would get far in this life and believe me im doing that! I need to stop the tears are coming! Moving on,I have the greatest friends ever Kourtney,bestie for 12yrs and will always be my bestie! My most recent bestie Mike, the one of the only guys i trust actually one of my bout 10 friends lol. This guy has been here for me when i needed him the most and gave me the greatest advice,he even got me to make this blog haha!Just had to mention my two bestfriends...oh cant forget bout bethany not as close as we were but best to belive thats still my diary and im here for her and she was here for me through my grandmother "problems" and helped me keep calm and content i cant say or show my appercition and how much it meant to me! any way back on to my life im a complex person to understand if you dont know dont judge me.If you dont like me,i could care less.Im ready to drop the drama and move on;I guess you can say im easily misjudged and misunderstood. Well im done blogging.Untill next time=]

-YanMillie

Offical Blogger?

Okay,for one I wouldnt have made this blog if Mike aka Bestie wouldnt have told me bout it.Lol. Well,today took the SATs..i guess it was okayy not as hard as they say. But it deff was the longest test i have ever taken and hope it will be the last; Junior Year almost finished..Senior year is right there...My school week quite interesting;filled with drama,One of the best ppl i know got locked up;and i will miss em..let me make a public announce meet despite the rumors and he said she said stuff,im going to answer all the questions that have been floating bout..No i dont go with akmed,Yes im single and have been for a minute.Do i talk to someone No,and if i did it wouldnt concern you,Do i like someone yes indeed i do...Anymore questions? Maybe this here will cut the rumors down to a minimum. Well,I have a life to atttend to,Blog later i guess.

-YanMillie